I have always thought of myself as a success driven career girl without the career girl wardrobe*.
The last company I worked for was a small company with very little growth opportunities. Month after month for over three years I complained that I felt limited, that I feel like I am missing out on a lot of things the big corporate world can offer me. With a twist (retrenchments) and a big compromise (driving to Joburg), I got what I wanted this year. I was beyond myself with excitement, thinking I would conquer the corporate world – Fully knowing that this is what I have wanted for the past 3 and a half years.
It didn’t take me very long to figure out that what I thought I wanted wasn’t what I really wanted. There isn’t ever really a day that go by where I don’t think of all the things I am missing out in my loved ones lives because I am sitting at work; sitting in traffic on my way to or from work. Because I am working late because there is work that needs to be done. Maybe being in a stable loving relationship has changed me a little bit, maybe I had forgotten how demanding the corporate world is.
Either way, I am glad I now have my priorities in line. Even if right now there is very little I can do to change my situation. Maybe in the future I will make better decisions! And that is how we learn.
* The wardrobe is really a bit formal for my liking, I prefer a more laid back look :)