Sparrow at Heart

Sometimes it irritates me when what people say is so true, you cannot argue with them…


I just don’t feel like struggling anymore.  I feel like illuminating all things that I make me unhappy.  I feel like focussing on all things pink and fluffy!  And for the most part this is what I have been doing. 

 Unfortunately the fact of the matter is – everything is not pink or fluffy.  

  • Although the boss has assured us numerous times in fact, that we do not have to worry – he is not exactly telling us what kind of salary increases we are getting either. 
  • The maintenance court date is on the 29th of April.  I know I have to follow the procedures, I know that the law is on my side.  I also know that things will pay off eventually.  I just cannot help thinking that the 29th of April is going to be a waste of my time.   
  • My expenses are piling up.  I am managing on a day-to-day basis.  But I am going no-where slowly when it comes to settling debt. 
  • All luxuries have been cut. 

At the moment even UNISA  is a luxury.  They have cancelled my subjects for this semester, because of outstanding fees.  At the moment I feel like giving up.  It doesn’t change my dreams or my goals, but for the moment I feel like I don’t have the resources and I don’t have the aspiration to sort this out just now. 

This of course was when my friend said:  “Why don’t you work out how much money you have invested in UNISA?” 

I am happy at the moment.  I am content in my relationship,  I feel loved like I’ve never felt before.  I feel like I am apart of a family – Logan is blooming, he is confident, he is happy. 

I just don’t want to replace my happy feelings with stressful financial related feelings.  It does however explain a lot of my state of mind when I am not around Kobus.

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Author: Alet Swart

Gauteng based boy-mama and blogger. Passionate about self-development & learning. A21 Volunteer. Empowered by Grace.

5 thoughts on “Sometimes it irritates me when what people say is so true, you cannot argue with them…

  1. I get this! So very much!

    Am battling with the exact same issues at the moment :(


  2. I get the money issues for sure.

  3. I so understand the financial thing, having started my own business it is really difficult financially as there is no steady income, I have not had a salary in 2 years. I am just very, very fortunate that I can fall back on my precious hubby. I am very happy to hear that you and Kobus are doing well and likewise your little boy, that is wonderful news. I still owe you your free facial, so let me know when you want to come thru, perhaps we can arrange it when Joshua is here so Logan can play and you can chill.

  4. Just hang in there…things will get better again you’ll see. I have zip money and lots of debt too, but my main concern at the moment is that I have no time. For that reason alone I am quite happy that UNISA and myself have parted ways for the time being too.

  5. I am truly in awe of how single moms are managing their lives. And money. It must be so tough. And time – where the hell do you find time to study?

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